I want God!

It has been said that we will all eventually become disabled in our last days. Here’s the personal story of my wife’s Mom.

My wife Margaret’s 88 year old mother has been in declining health for years. Just last week she came down with pneumonia, and even with oxygen 24 hours a day, she continually struggles to breathe. She is not taking food or drink, and lapses in and out (mostly out) of consciousness. She’s receiving morphine to help with her breathing. She’s dying. She has been a farmers wife who raised six children (four daughters and two sons), and now she is totally disabled. Her name is Ruth Weaver.

We were visiting the other night and I took her hand and greeted her. Our faces were perhaps eighteen inches apart. She was aware, though the morphine may be having some effects on her consciousness. She looked at me and said,

You’re not God. I want God!

Her body is failing, but her spirit is alive and active; she yearns to see Christ, and is filled with Divine eros (desire). Is this not the heart of the matter?

Later, as we left, she asked Margaret, “Do we have to go through all this?” She also spoke of light and darkness. She is going through the great spiritual struggle godly people go through at the end.

Please join us in praying for her.

She is a Mennonite Christian.

“My soul thirsts for the living God; When shall I come and appear before the face of God?” (Psalms 41:3, Septuagint, 42:3, Hebrew text)

For Ruth, the answer to her plea came on August 2, 2008, 1:15 a.m.

Ruth Weaver, Oct. 10, 1919- Aug. 2, 2008, memory eternal!


3 Responses to “I want God!”

  1. 1 mamajuliana July 31, 2008 at 2:52 PM

    Lord Have Mercy on Ruth!

    May the Lord Strengthen you, your wife and your family during this time.

    We will definintely keep you mother-in-law and the family in our prayers!


  2. 2 Julana July 31, 2008 at 4:09 PM

    God be with you all. I grew up in a Mennonite family, and have a deep appreciation for the community.


  3. 3 armsopenwide August 1, 2008 at 10:32 AM

    Thank you so much, mamajuliana and Julana, for your prayerful support for Ruth, as well as Margaret and the family.


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